Scale Day v39.0

Oh boy am I in trouble.

This past week could have gone so many different ways. I was just 0.5 pounds away from my goal weight. I needed to simply follow what had been working for me in the previous 38 weeks: sleep, drink plenty of water, good food choices and exercise. This week was a reminder that half assing your way to you goal weight does NOT work.

I got plenty of sleep this week, did well with the water. Calorie limit was kept, but I could have made better food choices. Above all else this week had one MAJOR problem. Besides a couple of slow bike rides with the family I got zero minutes of exercise. You read that right. I did NOT get up one morning this week and workout and I was unable to get in any afternoon workouts. I typed pathetic, but I just erased it. Yes, not working out is NOT good and yes, we all need a break every now and then. So is that what I needed? A break. Didn’t I just have a vacation?

Do I still want to reach my goal weight?


So, what am I going to do about it?

Did I workout this morning? Do you see my head hanging down all sad? No, I did not workout this morning. But I do want to reach my goal weight. The healthy journey IS important to me. It’s not past tense, it is present. Failure is only an option if I do not move forward and I WILL move forward. I have come too far not to see this through. I deserve to see it through.

It has been weeks since I worked on my Nia studies. Nia had become a passion for me and without it in my life I feel blah. Could that be what I need? A dose of passion? To move and feel free sounds real good right now, especially since I gained back almost everything I lost last week. Last week I lost 1.4 pounds and this week I gained 1.3 pounds. I am now 1.8 pounds away from my goal.

OK, so I’ve laid out what happened and an idea for kicking my butt back into gear. If not today, than tomorrow morning I WILL get up and do a Nia routine. In the mean time I’m going to continue with my water and GOOD food choices. Oh, and I need to put the books down a little earlier in the night and get a good nights sleep so I CAN get up earlier and workout. For the love of all things healthy, I want to workout!

Scale Day v37.0

Oh vacation how I miss you. You were good to me when I needed you, but now you’ve up and left me, boo hoo hoo 🙂 just kidding around. It is however a bit of a shock to the system getting in and out of vacation mode. Knowing spring (actually it’s mid-summer right now in Michigan, expected high today: 86!) is right around the corner is keeping my mood light.

It was about this time last year when I started my slow roll into my healthy journey. It took a few months to get a steady roll, but this is where I began. Seeing pictures of me during last years vacation was a sock to say the least and the final straw in my unhealthy coffin. 

Lots of changes in my routine, nutrition and activity level all together helped me to take this years vacation 32.6 pounds lighter. But would you see the changes in the photos? We all know pictures, when not touched up, are pretty blatant.

Is that the same girl? Yes, that’s me. If you look close in the first picture you’ll find another inter-library-loan book with the same blue paper down the front. I’m not sharing any beach pictures here, yuck, I’ve still gots some work to do!! But I think I look healthier and that makes me smile.

The other question was how crazy did I go with the eating during vacation? And did I get in any exercise?

The week started off like a shot, oh hells bells, it wasn’t looking good on the exercise front. Not until Thursday did I get a chance to take a walk/run on the beach. I planned my walk with the 1st week advice from couch to 5k. I was nervous to start my 60-seconds of running, I mean wouldn’t my back side bounce like crazy (like it used to) and would I be able to run for a whole minute?!? Surprise, surprise I did it and it was so much fun that I kept going and going and covered twice as much beach as I thought I would. In the end I spent 45-minutes on my walk/run, I little long I know and my calves paid for it the next day too, but I felt friggin fantastic!! Saturday I got another walk/run in, with a more respectable 25-minutes. Not sure how I’m going to fit running in at home, but I must find a way. I want the challenge. I’m craving the challenge.

On to some eating admissions. I got in my water on vacation, thank goodness too because on average I had 500 more calories a day than I normally do, holy cow. No, I didn’t eat a cow, but at some times I felt like it and that I did NOT enjoy. What I did enjoy was the coconut shrimp, yummy.

So what did I do the day after vacation ended?

I got up and worked out and stopped at my calorie limit and did the same yesterday, but today I had to face the scale.

Expecting a gain, I was shocked when I found a loss? What? I have no idea how, but in the last 2-weeks, with a 2-week total of 295 exercise minutes & the crazy vacation week eating I lost 0.6 pounds. I’ve hit a new low of 131.9 pounds, BMI 24.1!

I survived vacation with a loss, amazing, and a new challenge. First Priority: lose that 1.9 pounds and FINALLY get to my goal weight. I’m back to all my goals here, calorie limit, water, sleep, 300-minutes of exercise a week, I needs it all!! I must also fit in walk/run time, I’ll let you know next week if I find a way.

Vacations are good, re-charged I am.

Now, have you seen the teaser for Breaking Dawn part II?


Scale Day v32.0

This past week I was looking to change so many things. My effort and my outlook needed a complete overhaul, my balancing act of tasks needed some shuffling too.  After losing just 1.3 pounds in the last 4-weeks and actually gaining weight last week, a new pace was an obvious must.

Change is hard, sometimes it takes being at a fork in the road, which is certainly were I was. When you see only two ways to move forward you have to choose. Choose to keep going down the road you’ve been paving and accept the inevitable, or you can choose something different.

Do you like the road you are on?

I didn’t like my road and it was dragging me down, back to the place I was pre-healthy journey. I don’t ever want to be that person again. She was sad, pained and very unhappy. I’m not sure which I wanted more, to move forward or not to go back.

So I was faced with making a backward trend official or with moving the ball forward, how did I do?

I increased my exercise minutes by 252%, yes, that’s right, but I still didn’t make my goal of 400 exercise minutes, boo. I can only reach that goal if I do at least one double workout, which I didn’t do. But I did get up each day and workout, for a total of 340 minutes, not bad at all!! I also kept to my calorie limit and I was, on average, just shy of reaching my water goal every day.

When I got up this morning I was nervous to step on the scale. Oh I’ll be honest, I started getting nervous last night. Luckily this was also a measuring day, but I was not excited about that either, remember I lost just over one pound in the last 4-weeks.

I measured first, hoping for some encouraging news. Hips -0.25, Upper Arm, -0.25, Bust -0.5, waist -1.0, not bad, not bad. I’ve lost 6 inches off my waist since July, so cool, no wonder last summer’s shirts look like maternity shirts on me now. The scale also had good news, but not as good as I had hoped, I’m down 0.8 pounds. So I didn’t quite lose what I gained last week, which was 0.9 pounds, but the scale is moving in the right direction, major YEAH!!!

I also changed up my schedule a bit and the day, although still tough to fit everything in, seems to run a little smoother. I’m making time each day to work on my books, I’ve already added 1,480 words this week and I’ve started reading a craft book on plot & structure. I have to giggle about the book, because never could I imagine that I would find it so fascinating, where was this girl in school? Working on my books makes me happy, must remember this.

OK, now what?

My healthy goals for the week: continue to work out every day and pick a day for a double workout…Monday. Continue to be vigilant in my food choices and spread the calories out. I’ve been making a better water effort, but this week, it’s goal time, hit it every day.

I have 3 more scale days before my birthday and 4.3 more pounds to lose, well that’s ugly and that’s not the attitude I’m going for either. I have 4 more scale days before we leave on vacation…Goal: to reach my weight goal by either my birthday or my vacation.

No time for moving back or for being stagnant, moving forward is the only option here, a new pattern is a MUST!!

Have you made any new patterns lately?

Scale Day v30.0

***Dad Update (see Monday’s post): today is the end of the road for my dad in the hospital. Today he either comes home or he will be admitted into a rehab facility. I’m praying they have room for him today!! If he comes home for any stretch of time I’m certain this bad situation will get incredibly worse. One bit of good news, the cardiologist told us he didn’t have a heart attack, of course next time he might not be so lucky. My dad has been pretty nice these couple of days while he was in the hospital, that is until his drinking buddy visited him yesterday. Jeez-O-Petes! Please give us all strength!!***

When life blows up it is hard to stay vigilant in your journey, ain’t that the truth!! This week I’ve hit and missed my goals. I need to make a decision. Am I going to let the situation with my dad, which may go on as it is for months, derail me from my goals? I’ve been letting his situation consume me, which is not shocking, he’s in a bad way. But you know what is making me feel worse, not sticking to my goals, not paying any attention to my needs, how I feel, what my family needs. Living life at half attention waiting for a shoe to drop is no way to live.

My goal this week was to workout for 400 minutes, I got in 230. On average I was almost 200 calories over my limit every day. I did great on water and sleep, whoop-de-do, NO, STOP that right now!! I did work out this week, I didn’t completely forget about the hunger scale (although I willingly let it slip my mind for a few minutes here and there) and I did lose a little bit of weight!! Hey, now there is some good news. I lost 0.4 pounds this week.

Challenge time, time to get my head in the journey and nothing does that better than a challenge. I have 4.2 more pounds to hit my goal weight and 5 more scale days before my birthday. 4.2 pounds in 5-weeks, on yeah, game is ON!!

How am I going to do it? 5-weeks of getting in my daily workouts, water, sleep and HUNGER SCALE whispering.

I can do this. In the last 30 weeks I’ve lost 30.9 pounds, I can do this. I want it, I can do it.

No Random Thoughts, just…detox

The last couple of days have been inevitable. When you grow up with an alcoholic father who is the life of the party you know some day is going to come.

My father recently turned 70 and he turned into the Grinch this Christmas. The five days we spent with them were not fun with his attempt to ruin every happy moment. In the days since Christmas, when he finally had a chance to realize all that he had ruined, there were harsh realities to face and he had a choice. He could continue to ignore his problem or he could choose to face reality.

I’m happy to report that he has decided to get sober. Relief sure, but now the real work begins.

How long has he been an alcoholic, that’s a good question that I can not answer. My dad was never been a mean drunk until this past year. Unfortunately his problems with the drink were ignored for many years. Of course I was probably pretty young when he started to really have a problem, I probably wasn’t even born yet.

So what do you do with a man who wants to get sober, decision made, but the really good programs near him put him on a wait list until March? Ouch! The doctor put him on a medication, one that helps with withdrawals, but you can not drink while on the medication. Sure, a man who has been drinking daily for probably 40+ years is going to stop cold turkey…

My father was rushed to the ER on Saturday and yesterday for low blood pressure. Thank goodness my mother is strong and is handling things well. The good news, the program he wanted is working on making space for him today. Hallelujah!

My  brother/sister-in-law/mom and I are riding the texting train, we have our fingers firmly crossed. Of course this is the beginning of a very long road. I am extremely thankful he has finally made the hard decision, for that he has re-earned some respect, not just mine, but his as well.

In times like this it is hard to live on the opposite side of the state, but I am trying not to let this craziness consume me, but it is difficult, can anybody say Al-Anon.

Scale Day v29.0

Back in the saddle again, oh boy, oh boy. I’ve been back to working out now for 9-days, 9-days since my neck started to feel better. I’m so happy that I snapped right back into my routine. Well, snap might be largely over stating things. After a week of sleeping in an extra hour everyday I was spoiled rotten!!! In those 9 days, only 6 were morning workouts and only 1 was a full 55-minute workout. Only one!! Yes, so snap does not quite cover what I did, BUT I did get in some kind of work out every day and for that I am ecstatic!!! My goal last week was not to get right back into my 400-minute a week goal, but to hit 300 minutes and that I accomplished, Woot, Woot!!!

Food choices and water I did pretty good on too.  My daily calorie average was right on point and I averaged just 1/2 a glass shy of my water goal. Even through my neck issues I stayed on top of my food goals, but it’s been 3 weeks since I lost at least 1 pound, the last three weeks gave me, -0.3, -0.1 &, -0.6.

This morning I felt like I had lost touch with what it takes to lose weight, like I really no longer knew what it takes. To my surprise the scale had some happy news for me. Can you say trust the process? I’ve been doing this journey thing consistently now for 29 weeks. It doesn’t totally feel like a struggle any more, because goals have become habits! I lost 1.2 pounds this week!!! Bringing my current 4-week total to -2.2 :(, but it brought my BMI down to 24.6!! I have 4.6 pounds to go before and I’ll hit my goal weight!!

My plan was to go right down stairs this morning and reward my loss with one of my hardest workouts, which requires using my 3-pound weights. I got downstairs just in time to finish the workout in its entirety, but my weights were missing, I still have not found them. The dear husband and the kiddos have so splainin to do!! No on hides my weights, NO ONE!! 😀

Ok, anyways…

I’m pushing my weekly workout-minute goal back up to 400!! I’ll let you know how it goes.

Trust the process and keep moving forward, it works!!!

Random Thoughts Monday v18.0

Last week was on of the fastest weeks in my life. I’ve been attempting to increase my evil day job hours and at the same time give Nia and my book editing daily attention. I might be pushing myself a ton, but I don’t see any other way at the moment. I’d love to give the evil day job the boot, but until Nia and gosh one day my book is sold that just aint going to happen. We solder on, don’t we, yes, we do, with a big smile, because my neck is pretty much all the way healed!!!

I have a few random thoughts…

  • Several months ago I shared one of my favorite ever links: What Woman Look Like. I like this site so much, because you can look at your height/weight/paint size & even shape type. If you are like me you may look at yourself and say, you need to lose a few (and I do, but just a few). If I would have found this site a decade ago (when I was 15 pounds lighter than I am now and I thought I was very over weight) I would have seen other woman, whose shape and size were similar to mine and would not have been able to call them over weight. So what would what mean about me…you got it, truth can feel really good sometimes!! Are you being truthful to yourself about your weight and how you feel? What can you do right this minute to make you feel better about yourself? I do not have to remind you to go do what ever you thought of, right?
  • ‘Most runway models meet the BMI criteria for anorexia,’ I believe it and so does a plus size model magazine as reported here. The article gives an interesting photo of a “plus-size” model and a “straight-size” model and goes on to say ‘Twenty years ago the average fashion model weighed 8% less than the average woman. Today, she weighs 23% less.” Wow, something is very wrong here. Wonder when or if they will ever get a clue?
  • Author Jeaniene Frost wrote a very interesting post on January 7th, entitled New year, no resolutions. Jeaniene is an amazing author, I really enjoy her books. She is a New York Times best-selling author, so why would she have self-doubt? Very interesting read, please check it out!!! 
  • Nia
    • Sanjana (the routine I’m currently learning): I made minimal progress this past week, however I did the movement several times as I worked my way back from injury.  This week I will continue to practice teaching the first 5 songs and begin the bars for the 6th song and 7th songs.  There are 8 songs in the routine.
    • 52 Moves in 52 Weeks: There are 52 moves in the Nia dictionary and what a great way to better know your craft than to spend 1 week with each move!!
      • “A” Stance. Stand with feet wider than hip width. Keep your knees spring-loaded and relaxed. Start with your weight centered, shift your weight back and forth and return to center to feel your balance.

Today is Martin Luther King Jr. day. He was such an inspiration. One of my favorite quotes of his:

“A right delayed is a right denied”

Yes, he was brilliant!! My great friend over at  created an inspirational post today in honor of Dr. King: This is How We Change the World, she had some help from her friends and I’m honored to be on the list. Please check it out!!!

Have a great week everyone!!

~Do you want to start or re-start your health journey? I’ve created a list of things that worked for me, see the last page listed at the very top of this page and Create Your Own Healthy Journey today!