Scale Day v26.0

When you are on a weight loss journey there are many highs and lows along the way.  Certainly making it through a hard workout feels amazing.  Seeing the first five pounds melt away is pretty cool, the next five feels even better.  Finding muscles you forgot you had is awesome.  Shopping for new clothes can really add up, but when you buy a size 6, when you started the journey in a size 12, feels incredible.  Hearing all my relatives compliment me is just icing on the cake.

With all the comments I received over the past few days only one hit me the wrong way.  After working hard for not just a few weeks, but 26 weeks, I’m not about to go into reverse and let the pounds back on.  This journey that I am on has not only changed my outlook on my health but also the reasons behind it.  What used to be one of the only reasons I wanted to lose weight, to look good in my jeans, is now just a by-product.  But nothing could stop my step-Grandma from saying, “now, just don’t put the weight right back on.” Yow, ah, ok, what do you say to this type of comment?  I can tell you what I wanted to say, but it was not appropriate to say to anyone let alone an elder.

Challenges will continue to come my way, but one thing I’ve got down is one week at a time.  I got Through Christmas week without gaining weight.  That’s right, I actually lost 0.3 pounds!!  Which is pretty awesome.  I did great on water this past week, 280 minutes of exercise (which is great considering my schedule) and sleep was actually pretty good.  Now calories, hmm, have no idea really, I can only say I didn’t go crazy, I had a Christmas cookie each day, but only one or two at the most.  I tried to keep to my normal patterns with foods, and considering I didn’t gain this week I think I did pretty good.

Last week I could have sworn the BMI calculator told me that once I (5′ 2″) weighed 136.5, my BMI would be 24.9.  I must have been mistaken, I need to weigh 136.4 before I enter the normal weight range.  Holy crud, I only need to lose 0.1 pounds!!!  I don’t normally do this, but considering the year is ending in two days I’m making a two-day goal.  My next goal is to enter the BMI normal weight category by the end of 2011.  If I would have said that 26 weeks ago I would have laughed at the impossibility, but now I just might be able to do it, regardless this year is a total success!!

I’m actually looking forward to making some New Years resolutions next week, I look forward to reading yours too.

Saturday I will be at a girlfriend’s house celebrating New Years with my 3 boys and a bunch of our friends.  My girlfriend’s husband is from Germany, so they celebrate New Years at 6 pm, when the calendar changes in Germany, how cool is that.  Shortly after I get my New Year’s kiss, my rocker hubby will be off to his gig, it all works out pretty well actually.

Hope you have a ROCKIN New Year!!!

What we can learn from moms

How many ways are there to do the same thing? A gazillion? Are there any two kids in the world that are the same?  Sure we can learn from each other and there are a lot of moms out there with wonderful advice, but in the end we need to do what is best for us and our family.

Living day to day, mom or not, can be hard, that’s the obvious.  My family, friends, blogging and tweeting has certainly helped me coop with life’s ups and downs.  But every once in a while I remember the best advice I ever got.  I was about six-months pregnant with my first son and I was at my baby shower.  A very wise mom, wish so much I could remember who, told me to listen to all the advice and then do what ever I think is right.  This wise woman gave me the key to so many of life’s challenges.  I only took it to heart in reference to my soon to be mommyhood, but recently I’ve realized how poignant her advice was to many of the trials in life.

Families look different and function different, which is amazing.  What works for me and my family situation may or may not work for you.  Why there are folks out there who feel they can judge anyone is beyond my comprehension.  I know many moms who would change their situation if they could, i.e. work more, work less.  I also know many moms who wouldn’t change a thing, of course it is ok to want/need to get out of the house, I don’t have to tell you that, you already know.  I love a lot of things about my situation but it’s not perfect either.

Which brings me to the first reason for my post.  Moms know one thing for certain: our kids are not perfect, but there is absolutely NO reason why they should not love themselves completely and unconditionaly, after all, we do.  I’ve known this little fact so clearly for the last 5 years, but haven’t taken the time to realize one other fact, my mom feels the same way about me.  Hmm…I’m hard on myself, yes I am, I beat myself up over the littlest things.  No, I’m not perfect and it was only recently that I realized that I’m glad I am not.  How else would I learn anything.  One of my all time favorite quotes:

Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more
intelligently.  -Henry Ford

This past Sunday a new show started on ABC: Once Upon A Time and I loved it, no surprise there.  Here is a little spoiler from the first episode.  A woman (Emma) who has given her son up for adoption 10-years ago is found by that son (Henry).  Henry has been adopted by a woman in Storybrooke (Regina).  Henry think Regina is the evil Queen from Fairy Tale Land and he begs Emma to stay in Storybrooke.  Regina sounds like most moms when her son goes missing and she is very protective of her son when Emma brings him back.  As Emma turns to leave she asks Regina, “Do you love him?,” I can only imagine that if Regina responds with a convincing yes Emma would feel that Henry is where he belongs and everything would be OK.  Isn’t that just it, the one thing we all MUST give our kids is our love.  A child who feels love can do anything, can dream the big dreams and be happy.  Kids know when they are loved, we parents are pretty transparent on that point.  I of course don’t pass up an opportunity to tell my kids I love them.  Regina spat out her answer, “Of course I love him.” I don’t have to tell you that Emma decides to stay in Storybrooke, but what is more interesting is why Emma asked her question and the question itself.

Many of us can still learn a thing or two from our moms and or the moms around us.  We should love ourselves and embrace any flaws we perceive, those flaws give you a chance to learn.  We know when we are doing the right thing for us and if we are or not we should love ourselves anyways, learn from the result, move forward more intelligently and everything will be OK.

Scale Day v13.0

When I turned off the alarm this morning my mind went through three thoughts.  1. I know I lost this week, I worked hard and did great with the food choices and calorie counting.  2. I might not have lost this week, maybe I didn’t do enough. 3. I have a few ideas of things I want to try, regardless what the scale has to say I should do them.  Knowing that only a non-loss would really get me to make a new change, I actually didn’t know what to wish for, gosh I’m strange!!

As it turns out I think I got it all.  I didn’t gain but I only lost 1/2 a pound.  A new zero has entered my life and I was happy to see it.  Last week my weight was 151.2 and this week it is 150.7.  I was hoping to see 149 something, but that zero was a happy sight.  On a really bright side, I have some non scale news.  I’ve not been liking my clothes lately.  My t-shirts are so loose they look like maternity shirts and my jeans keep falling down.  Yesterday I found myself with 5 extra minutes as I exited the mall and I tried on size 8 jeans (when my journey started I was stuffed into a size 12, remember I’m only 5′ 2″) and I got them all the way up.  Sure they were snug, but I got them up and over my butt.  Speaking of which my butt is still large, but I have a waist and it’s smaller than my butt!!  Plus I’m starting to see the effects of all those ab exercises and my arms, lets just say I have muscles and I like to flex them.  I know I’m a dork, but it’s been a long time since I had anything to flex.  I also need to mention saddle bags.  When I started this journey one of the things I was thankful for was that I didn’t really have bad saddle bags.  Well as it turns out they were just covered up in excess fat.  Now that I have shed some of that fat you can see the bags.  They are not really bad, unless my doing side planks, wow and then they just hang down, so gross.  Ok, enough of that talk.  A few additional numbers to through out, my BMI has actually changed from last week, it’s down a tenth to 27.6, which is down 2.6 from where I started, not bad at all.  I only have 2.7 more points before I can say I am not over weight.

Several weeks ago I started a stretching goal, because I was feeling sore and it really helped.  The last few weeks I’ve been feeling pretty good and I’ve found my extra stretching sessions going by the wayside.  For almost three months now I’ve been working out practically everyday, in fact I’ve only missed 4 days.  This week actually included a missed day, but I doubled up my workouts a couple of days later.  My workouts are still very challenging.  Sure I’m making my movements bigger from where I started but I’m still able to get my heart rate up there…but I want a new challenge.

I have a zillion Pilates and several Yoga tapes that I have not yet gotten into.  I’m planning on adding two afternoon sessions this week, one Pilates and one Yoga.  the first Pilates session I’m going to try killed my arms the last time I did it (which was probably more than 5 years ago), it uses the band and I can’t wait to see if my new arms can handle the session.

I have huge plans for the next 6-months of my life and I can’t believe I have not yet mentioned it here.  You may have read some where along the way on my blog that I’ve studied dance all my life, including college and even had a scholarship with a company in Chicago post graduation.  Problems with my knees killed my dreams at the time and I came back to MI.  The move turned out to be a great decision since I married the man who made me want to come back and we now have two amazing boys.  My mother has been bugging me for years to try Nia and more recently one of my favorite bloggers sent me a Nia workout.  To say it was love at first dance is an understatement.  My love for Nia grows the more I learn about it and I have signed on to undergo White Belt Training in mid November, which will allow me to teach Nia.  The thought of making any kind of living from movement has me jumping up and down, in fact excuse me for a moment…ok I’m back 🙂 I am very thankful that my mom kept bugging me (ok that is what she excels at) and for my new bestest friend for bringing Nia to my life.

I’m not sure what the future holds but I’m going to work hard to put my body and mind in a place where I will hopefully be teaching and spreading the love of Nia to Kalamazoo (who currently does not have a Nia teacher).  Yes I need to keep up my cardio, because not only will I need to be able to do the Nia steps for my students but I will also need to be able to talk and instruct them through the class!!  But I also need to improve my flexibility.  I remember me as a new dancer back in elementary school, stretching daily in order to do the splits, thirty years later I’m in the same spot.  I know first hand what it takes to be flexible enough for the splits (all three ways) and to fold yourself in half over your legs when they are straight out in front of you (seated forward bend).

Here are my goals: splits, a full seated forward bend and losing another 6 pounds before While Belt Training.

How am I going to do it?  I’m going to keep eating well, keep working out daily, add afternoon Pilates and Yoga (starting once a week) and I WILL stretch daily.  The only way to really improve my flexibility is to really work at it, not just as my muscles are warming up or cooling down.  It needs to get its own part of my attention.  I can’t wait to see what my body has to say about these new goals.  Hmmm, a sense of excitement and a can do attitude, that for sure puts me on the right foot.

September 7, 2011

Big day in my household, not only did my oldest get on a school bus and ride to school for the very first time, it is also my husband’s 39th Birthday and for me, it is scale day, oh boy!!!

Man am I proud of my son!!  Just yesterday he was saying he didn’t want to go to school.  Maybe my pep talk and incentives played a part in his change in attitude, but in the end he had to choose to have a good day and enjoy his adventure.  Yes, I’m taking my son’s example and moving forward in my journey.  If he can get on the bus and concur his fear, than I can too!!!

Scale day.  After last weeks disappointment (+0.4 pounds) I was hoping for at least some kind of loss.  I continued in my daily workouts, got in all the planned water, even added in the extra stretching almost every night.  I have to get side tracked here and tell you how happy I am that I added the extra stretching.  I’m not sure if it was the afternoon workouts on both Saturday and Sunday, which means I got in more sleep both those mornings, or if it was the stretching.  Regardless, I feel a ton better than I did last week and my hip joints are happy too, thank goodness!!!  Anyways, back to scale day.  I definitely did better on the calories this week.  I listened to the hunger scale, but I could have made better food choices and there were at least a few days I went a little over (at least 14% over) my calorie limit.  I was concerned and a little anxious this morning, but mainly I just wanted to know what it had to say so that I could move forward and do ever better this week.  I am happy to report I lost 3.1 pounds this week!!!  What, wait, yes, that’s right!!!  3.1 pounds!!!  Now before I get too excited, I think this means I was holding some water weight last week.  If I add my change in weight to last week it means I’ve lost 1.35 pounds per week, which has been kind of my norm, so I’m back on track.  The good news does not stop there.  I’m more than 30% of the way to my final goal, which is a new milestone for me.  Plus my BMI is down .5 from two weeks ago and 2.2 from my starting number!!!  Love it, Love it, Love it!!!  What did I do to celebrate…my hardest workout of the week.  I didn’t plan on doing the hardest workout on scale day, but it sure has been nice.  No mater if I lose or gain, a good hard workout feels great after facing the scale.  Trust the process and keep moving forward.  Forward on to another week of actively reaching for my goals, gotta love it!!!

Finally, to my husband.  There is a place I got where it is safe to be myself.  There is a place I go where laughter and tears flow freely.  There is a place I go where truth is spoken and dreams are shared.  It is a place of acceptance, understanding and honesty.  I’m thankful, that with you, I’m always there.  I love You.  Happy Birthday!! Now you are officially older than me 🙂

September 2, 2011

Well, after not losing weight this week you’d think I’d be more careful with my calories.  Yesterday was a total bomb.

All was going well, my water intake was great, then the afternoon hit and I was so hungry.  Yes, I’d say a 5 on the hunger scale.  I drank a class of water and had a couple of nuts.  I did my grocery shopping and I was pretty good at the store, it could have been really bad too.  The trip gave me another sign that I have been changing my eating habits, because I had one craving in the store and since I was hungry I indulged.  So what did I get, was it some candy, no, was it cheese popcorn, no, it was veggie chips.  I had to laugh, because when I got home I ripped open the package and had two chips, man did they hit the spot.  The result was very different from what would have happened four months ago.  unfortunately I was still hungry.  While unpacking the food I accidentally ripped open a banana, so I made a drink with it (milk, banana, little sugar, little cocoa and coffee), which is less than 3o0 calories, not bad, again it could have been so much worse.

The problem was that I now had enough calories left for a little dinner, which is normally fine.  Last night I had dinner plans at the best Asian restaurant in town, their fish tacos are amazing.  How could I not enjoy, husband and I hardly ever get a date night.  Again it could have been a lot worse, we didn’t even have time for coffee.  I love me some espresso, which would be fine, but I like mine with milk and chocolate, oh yes, the mocha, yummmm, I do usually go for the tall, skim and no whip though.  We did make it out to the best brewery in Michigan, Bells where a couple of local bands got together (all good friends of my rocker husband- in fact one of the guitar players is my youngest’s godfather and we are god parents to their oldest) to play the whole of Abby Rd.  The show rocked and of course I indulged in one beer.

I blew past my calorie count yesterday, by more than 700 calories, it could have been a lot worse.  I didn’t complete let go, but I did indulge, which is ok as long as I don’t make it a pattern and I get right back on track today.  Yes I have had breakfast, I’m on my 2nd 16-oz glass of water and I’ve had two aleve, because I’m older now, rocking out, staying up late and having one beer does me in 🙂

I did sleep in this morning.  I will get in a work out this afternoon, already have it scheduled with the family.  I got to thinking, it has been 14 days since I missed a morning workout.  I was tired yesterday morning during my workout, I didn’t have the best workout, which made me sad.  I remember a couple of weeks ago I slept in a few mornings and I felt rejuvenated once I got back into the morning workout routine.  I’m hoping the restful morning will help me to have a good workout this afternoon.  I also have been thinking for some time that I need to spend time everyday stretching, more than what my workouts cool down provides.  My muscles are starting to feel tight, a sign of strain and over work I think.  Starting today I’m making a daily goal to stretch and I’ve added it to my goals page, I like that page!!

So in summary, I’ve gotten off track and my muscles are tight and tired.  Today I will get back to my calorie limit and all my goals, including the new stretch goal.  I’ll continue to listen to my body, indulge occasionally and then get back on track and move forward reaching for my goal, a healthy me.

Happy Labor Day Weekend Everyone!!!


Good Morning Everyone!!

I just checked out my stats and it appears a few people have looked at my blog, how cool is that.  Hello and thank you for visiting 🙂

My husband’s long work week starts today.  I don’t think I’ve mentioned yet that he is a working musician.  He makes all his income from playing, a bit for writing and recording and he teaches a few lessons each week.  I’m happy to say he is the bread-winner.  When our marriage started I was working full-time and he was in an original band that he loved.  Now he is in, what we call, a jobbing band.  He plays all covers at bars, country clubs, corporate events and weddings.  With all his efforts I can work part-time (I’m a self-employed project manager) and stay home with our boys.  But each week he travels a ton and this week is no exception.  He has gigs tonight and tomorrow night (he’ll come home after those) and when he leaves friday he wont be back until late Tuesday 😦 …home alone with our two boys for 4 days, should be fun, but tiring

My sinus cold feels lighter today, but it’s the am, always feel better in the am

I planted crocus bulbs last fall in my front yard and they are starting to bloom, so beautiful.  Don’t forget to look for color sprouting around where you live.  This is a magical time of year that no one should miss!!

We have a DVR, what a great invention, it truly changed the way I watch TV.  Although I still watch hours of TV each week, I no longer feel chained to it.  Last night we watched an episode of the Event (not the newest, we are a bit behind), wow, crazy cool show.  Could the bad old guy actually be a bad good guy???  How many people are left on Sophia’s home planet…thousands, millions, billions, oh my 🙂

Hello world!

I finally started, wow, I’m so excited. Ok, now what?…

My purpose: simply to blog about my life. I’d like to figure a few things out along the way and if I help one person (besides myself) during the process I’ll consider it a success.

Categories: I’m a wife and mother first, these will be major topics. I have two boys, currently 4 and 19 months. I’m in my late thirties and I’ve struggled with my weight since my first pregnancy. Well that’s not honest, but more about that later. I’m sure I’ll mention books, I mean how can I not, I love to read. I’ll probably mention tv and movies. I love to garden, as spring continues to begin you will see more on that. Politics I’m going to do my best to stay away from, not that I don’t have my opinions, I do, but that is not the point of  my blog. I’ll also write about my friendships and I’m sure many other things.

I hope to reach someone, especially myself!